This week for Spiritual Journey Thursday, we are writing about Leigh Ann Eck's OLW: INTENT.
Intent is something I struggle with, especially when it comes to making time to write. Take today for example. My intent was to get all of my grading done before I left school today so I would have more time to work on this blog post. It didn't happen. Instead, I spent my planning time writing a letter of recommendation for a colleague. Although I was happy to write the letter, it took considerable more time than I planned, and I had to bring the grading home.
The workload of a teacher goes beyond the school day. Every night, I pack my tote bag full of more work than I can possibly do. Yet, even though I know it's an impossible task, I lug it home anyway, with the intention of getting it done.
I get paid to be a teacher and I care about my students so I feel guilty when I take time away from school work to do something I enjoy-- like writing.
For several years, I've intended to write a collection of poems about a topic I'm passionate about. I set writing goals and intend to keep them. But, somehow I always push writing to the bottom of my "to do" list, and it never gets done: an endless cycle of intention and failure.
So, I've been thinking about why this keeps happening. The answer just might be in that overflowing tote bag. It feels like a metaphor for my life because I always put more in my "tote bag" than I can possibly do. My writing intentions are good, but I haven't taken the action necessary to achieve them.
A few months ago, I watched a program about the power of changing one thing in your life. I intended to try it back then, but...
Finally, the time has come. I'm replacing my large tote bag with a much smaller one. Instead of working on "school" for an hour each night, I'll work on it for thirty minutes and use the other thirty to write. My intention is set, now it's time to take action. I'm ready to do this!